Facing Memory – Day 24

I cannot write today. Heavy, burdened, depressed, collapse. My dreams are of drowning, of the world crashing in around me, of cars and (I realize this is crazy) tankers full of tax papers. I even splurged on a tall decaf half sweet salted caramel mocha And that did not lift my heavy mood. I am […]

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Facing Memory – Day 23

I am tired. Baby is teething. My bed AND floor are covered in laundry. I still need to change my sheets (spit-uppy teething baby). Please understand that skipping tonight intentionally is difficult for me. But my eyes are barely open… Grace. With myself, is difficult. I am continuing “to do” a lot as to not […]

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Facing Memory – Day 22

Therapy this morning. A lot of thoughts. Busyness to keep me from thinking. Watched the Debate, rehung curtains, rearranged the living room. Remembered that it was just about a year ago that we were certain that our sweet baby wouldn’t make it. We were aiming to reach 24 weeks (Christmas week). And she was born […]

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Facing Memory – Day 21

10:30 pm Baby is asleep, Dear Husband has finished with the garbage. The shuffle of Sarah McLachlan has happened on a Christmas song. I just inhaled some Good Earth tea and am coughing every few seconds. BUT, I am now typing on my computer instead of my phone, so that is a plus! ••• Today […]

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