Facing Memory – Day 3

I didn’t get bulbs planted yesterday. I barely made it through the day, pushing the two littles through the park to son’s x-country meet. Using bribery (I mean, positive reinforcers) to get the head-strong 6-yr-old to get in the car and NOT run away. Driving out to the farm to pick up our CSA (and […]

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Facing Memory – day 2

I talked to my beloved counselor yesterday about this venture. About taking back what should be my favourite month of the year. That October is not at fault. Nor, for that matter, is Halloween. And what happened was not my fault either. It was NOT my FAULT. Sometimes that is hard to remember. Especially when I […]

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A Falling Away

I am walking now. I even drove a bit this week. I’ve been doing laundry, making some of the meals, ridding closets of outgrown/worn out clothing – evidence that my children grew without me nurturing their bodies with food, or wrapping them in clean garb, or even snuggling them on the couch – watching them […]

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Let Down with Let-Down

Abba. PLEASE help me. Jesus, please deliver me. As Dear Husband prayed over me tonight – heal me from these deep emotional wounds that seem to be hindering my precious quiet moments with our newborn. The shame that flows through my spine and makes me want to hide in a corner when I’m nursing. The […]

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